A few weeks ago, my best friend recommend I watch a new show on Hulu called Shrill. SNL’s Aidy Bryant stares as a plus size woman who struggles with body image that spills over into her work relationships as well as her personal relationships. I was a little hesitant about watching this show because I did not want to watch another stereotypical fat girl sob show but this show really gave me the emotional release I never knew I needed.
See, like most plus size women I identify with Aidy’s character so much. I too grew up in a family full of people who constantly reminded me of my weight, especially my father. Not to get into too many details, my weight has caused me so much pain in my life and I struggled with my self-esteem for years because of it. By episode four of Shrill I was in legit tears because I realized that I was in a place where I loved my body and it felt good to realize that despite the shitty things I’ve been through regarding my self-image. I finally made it to the point where I can say “I am fucking fat and I fucking love it”. I no longer sit and feed my mind with negative thoughts or images that diminish my overall self-worth. I am at a place where I can go out in public with a bomb ass crop top and feel GREAT about myself. I am finally at a place where I can go to the swimming pool with a two-piece swimsuit and still feel sexy. When I have sex, I won’t have to inform my partner that I don’t want to remove certain clothing because I don’t like my body. I’ve worked so hard for years to overcome the fucked up shit society throws at women like me and it feels fucking AMAZING! I do not have to view my body from the outside looking in because I am no longer at war with my body. My body and I are one and it feels good to be able to embrace my body for what it is, and NOT what society tells me it should be. To everyone who sits around and forms opinions on other people’s body, GO FUCK YOURSELF! To all my fat, sexy, beautiful, badass women out there, our time is now here. The moment we have all been praying for is now right in our face. It is time to embrace your body no matter how many back rolls you have or how big your stomach is, say fuck all that shit and LOVE IT! I do not believe we are created unequal just because we happen to have more to offer than the average body (whatever the average body fucking is). Shrill gave me the reminder that I needed that I am a boss ass bitch and it is now my time to own it.
As always, I love you all so much! Let the wearing less and going out more season commence, fat girls INCLUDED!